April 2010
35 posts
my fiancé is perfect.
and i’m glad i finally got to do dirty things on cam with him. he has amazing abs. <3
Apr 30th
someone please build a fucking time machine and...
now.
Apr 28th
i am a fuck-up.
i’ve fucked everything up. everything. everything i’ve ever had that was good, i’ve fucked it up.
Apr 28th
i just saw a skunk :)
Apr 26th
3 tags
Apr 26th
why yes, bitchez,
i AM going out to smoke again.
Apr 26th
i feel incredibly shitty right now.
my body hurts and my head hurts and i’m tired but can’t sleep.  here’s a list of things that always make me cry:  pictures of Paris weddings engagements k, i’m done.
Apr 25th
“i like my body when it is with your body. It is so quite new a thing. Muscles...”
– e.e. cummings, from the book, Erotic Poems. Featured in ‘Beautiful Things for Slow Sex’ in the Ritual issue of Filthy Gorgeous Things. (via filthygorgeousthings)
Apr 25th
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i totally think i could be a model right now.
albeit a kinda short one.
Apr 24th
i feel like dancing in a sexy kind of way.
but i feel like a ‘tard when i try and i really suck at it. i am too used to being good at things right from the start. like learning languages and giving blowjobs and having sex.  
Apr 23rd
turns out shitting your guts out CAN feel good
Apr 21st
my history book had a happy ending
Apr 20th
4 tags
Apr 18th
nothing like the first cigarette of the day
even if the first is at 9 PM, an hour after you wake up.
Apr 17th
please don't ever let me drink that much again
please
Apr 16th
fuck hangovers.
i think i’m dying.
Apr 16th
i just realised i don’t ever really do anything nowadays. get up some time in the early afternoon smoke eat waste time online eat waste time online walk around outside from midnight until 3 or 4 AM smoke sleep
Apr 15th
here's hoping i don't get serotonin syndrome
Apr 13th
eat shit and die, you stupid cunt.
Apr 12th
i want so very much to be in Paris again
Apr 10th
paper-writing
it sucks.
Apr 9th
Apr 9th
i wish i weren’t on antidepressants, so i could robotrip. 
Apr 9th
Apr 9th
17 notes
3 tags
Apr 8th
“The Brezhnev era, like a Tolstoy novel, had rolled along and ended without a...”
– history book
Apr 6th
and i have already spent too much time  doing things i didn’t want to  so if i just want to make out all the time  you can bet your black ass that i’m going to - afp
Apr 6th
it is midnight:17
i’m going outside to smoke and listen to music and write lists of things i want to do. maybe i’ll write a love letter too.
Apr 4th
evidently,
being a total fuckwad is genetic in my family.
Apr 4th
Apr 4th
Apr 4th
insomnia
i’m thinking about becoming an insomniac. i will drink coffee to stay awake and go out at 3 AM to smoke and listen to music.
Apr 4th
smoked for the first time.
4 cigarettes. smoking is highly underrated. and yet overrated at the same time.
Apr 4th
why do i feel like this
i was reading somebody’s tumblr, and began to feel really panicky and pissed off at my fiancé. for absolutely no reason.  or no reason that i can find. i’m sure there’s something going on subconsciously. i’d really like to know. i don’t want to feel like this anymore. 
Apr 3rd
i wish i could be happy.
Apr 2nd